I need him so bad.  I've never wanted anything more in my life.  Never needed anything more in my life.  He goes away, but the minute I think he's left for good he's back on my mind.  Coincidence?  No way.  So what is God trying to tell me here?  Who knows.  I'd say maybe it was just destiny, that Hunter and I are meant to be together, or some sort ( Read more... )

God. I am so incredibly thankful for all that he has given me, and just thankful for him in general. My appreciation for him is unfathomable. Being born again and exercising my Christianity is the best thing I could have ever done in life. He's given me so much, and opened my eyes to so many things. I'd never loved before I knew him, never trusted ( Read more... )

Basically, they are what makes life interesting. It's funny to just think of general things in your life, random things that you never ponder until you're kind of just sitting there with nothing to do. Like, how I just realized I'm pretty much vegan. Earlier I was getting food and it's already known that I don't eat meat and haven't in several ( Read more... )

I miss those times Like back in the day When the chick was chill And you had something to say About this About me About everything ( Read more... )

I'm still in love. But really, it's quite nice. I'm just anticipating that day when I'll drop my testimony like a bomb not knowing what he'll have to say in return. In other news... he is still as beautiful as I recalled.

Today the sun shone but I didn't feel so bright and as I woke up entangled in my mother's new itchy sheets I had this feeling I might as well not even get out of bed at all. In an effort to be optimistic I did anyway, seeing as I had plans for this February Monday and putting them off was no longer an option. I suppose that should have been a hint ( Read more... )

I have an eating disorder. I have had an eating disorder for the past couple of years... probably since around 7th grade. Poor body image is a horrible way of thought; I want to be healthy, I want to be able to EAT. I've been around the block, starving myself and more recently throwing up. It's not healthy. Depriving myself of food... it's what my ( Read more... )

I just read every single one of my journal entries prior to this one. It's amazing how much I've grown, changed, matured, etc. Within the course of a year, it's as if I've become a totally different person. You could notice that even by looking at little things, like the titles of songs I'd listed. I truly believe that junior high is probably the ( Read more... )

This just happens sometimes. People come into your life and captivate you. And being so caught up in someone that you can't take them off of your mind, well, it's just what happens. It is what has happened. But it will all be fine, I will be just fine. And everything will be all right.

I still feel it... there's something there. And I'm so lost right now... stuck, really. I know there's nothing there for him, nothing with me, but I still think the world of him. It's just there, it's not leaving. It's impossible for me to describe my outlook on the situation... I haven't lost hope, because there is no reason for one to ever lose ( Read more... )