Still so in love, i just can't describe.  Its beautiful.  Everything.  A whole new way of life.  Perfection... perfection.  Thank you god.

 Never again will I let the thought of whats to come dwell in the back of my mind, clouding my perception of what's here.

Praise Jesus, amen.

I've come to the conclusion that it's much easier to love someone when they don't love you back.  It's easier to love someone when there's a little lust thrown into the mix, it gives you more reason to think they're amazing.  I didn't love Hunter until he fell out of like with me.  Why?  Because I was still hooked on him, and psychologically, the ( Read more... )

I'm really loving it right now.  Recently, I was blessed with the friendship of some really good people.  And I'm very, very greatful.  I almost forgot how nice it is to have genuine friends.  Well, not necessarily how nice it is, but how good it FEELS.  It's wonderful.  Drama is my niche at West Ranch.  I'm very glad I decided to continue with it ( Read more... )

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I saw him this past weekend.  He dropped Tessa off at Kerstin's, and the first thing I said to Tessa as she got out of the car was, "Omigod, you're brother is so cute...", which is pretty pathetic considering I hadn't seen her in 4 months.  But I hadn't seen him either!  So then, he gives Kerstin and I a ride home that night.  He walks up to the ( Read more... )

Go to a place where nobody knows me and I can be whoever I want to be.  Well, I can always be whoever I want to be... but just to meet new people.  I get sick of them too quickly.  This place isn't fun.  I want friends who will go streaking with me at 3am and friends that will drive up PCH with me until we find the perfect place to go skinny- ( Read more... )

I'm happy with who I am.  I know I've complained about the fact that I haven't had much to think about lately, but I think it's due to my emancipation from who I used to be.  I've figured myself out, completely.  Sure, I have a long way to go before I can consider myself complete, but as far as knowing who I am and why I'm here... I know it all.

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AFI's beauty is beyond comprehension.  I couldn't ask for a better gift from God.  Meeting them Monday was the best birthday present I could have ever received.  I can't wait to meet them again ( Read more... )

I'm not really happy with my body.  I was fine for a while, but now I'm just not.  I think the devil's trying to get to me with all this shit that's been recently thrown into my head.  Out of curiosity, I looked up eating disorders and came across this intense pro-anorexia website.  This site... was crazy.  The way these women and girls think makes ( Read more... )