I needed the space because I was hurt, I was hurt that I poured so much into the relationship and I guess it's just not what you were looking for ( Read more... )

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All because of that one night, I poured my heart out to you.  Your response?  "You are awesome and deserve someone better ( Read more... )

I just need to remember that you don't care about me and never have

It doesn't matter if it's true, it's just what I need to remember.

You signed on tonight, I couldn't help wanting to talk to you.  I miss you but I don't know that I could handle being friends.  Right now with all this stress I can't handle just one more thing.  I miss you so much but I don't know, I'm in so much pain when I think about you.  I don't want to admit it but I doubt it would ever work in the future, ( Read more... )

I hate that I'm always the token lesbian with my friends.

I hate that my lack of femininity is magnified by that.

I hate that I feel like I'm not pretty or outgoing or confident enough for a girl to ever notice me or see me as anything other than "that butch."

Every time I feel this way I have to resist the urge to slice my arm open.

I don't even know who broke up with you but I either need to miss you or hate you and I don't want to miss you.  I really want to hate you but I still fucking love you and I hate that about me.  I have to either hate you or hate me, I'd rather hate you, I know I won't hurt you.

Everyone else seems to keep saying I deserve it, so why doesn't it ever happen?

All of the waiting, the panic, the hope, the desperation, all for nothing.  Absolutely nothing ( Read more... )

Things are just starting to hit me, I'm hoping I go back to my fuzzy unreality soon, I can't handle things right now.

The few people who could help are for on reason or another unavailable.

I am not okay.