It's just one of those days. A Test of Faith a test of Strength to see who will last longer ( Read more... )

I've had a more then a few days off now and i'm stating to get restless. Days off make the days go by slower, cause well there isn't much to do around here. I really wonder how Long I can endure this. I honestly don't want to endure the army at all but i'm here so I have to. more and more I wonder what I'm going to do with myself to keep myself ( Read more... )

I really gotta stop being paranoid in General. It's Causing me nothing but grief and where I am I really can't have that. I know she loves me I know it's the girl i'm most likely gonna marry. Well thats at least what I hope it's still early in the relationship to be thinking that .

I Really am a weak Person. I keep trying to control everything in my life Rather then just let things flow. I really am Pathetic it's almost sad. People keep telling me that it's obvious that my g/f is cheating on me. I don't want to even think about that this deployment is hard enough whould people Talking shit all the time. it' doesn't help that ( Read more... )

This is a Strange thing, I feel like writing again. Which has'nt happened in a long while. Is it the stress or is it the Frustration of being in a god forsaken country Perhaps it's just the Immoral nature of what i'me doing here ( Read more... )

Well, it all come down to a few things. People Fucken lie. I hate lairs I hate people that avoid certain truths I can't people who mislead me. In all honesty it makes me wonder if i should start being my paranoid self again. I just want this deployment to go easy not more problematic. >.< I really hate my life right now

Someone help me

I'm in a rather good mood today ( Read more... )

Always around christmas ( Read more... )

yeah .. about that. Thats wha tI need right now. my g/f is over 500 miles away and there is no way on earth I could ever cheate on her it would just shatter her world apart not to mention Would go against all the values that I have ( Read more... )

It's one of those days I feel compleatly alienated. I feel detacted from the very universe that keeps me sane i feel torn apart by the endless banter that fills these halls in my head. No one even knows who i am but Immediatly judges me on whom I am and what I do to keep myself alive. I don't eat I rarly sleep but it's all part of my master plan. ( Read more... )