People say I'm the life of the party ( Read more... )

did you know that you still make me cry?

did you know that its not the same?

did you know ever time i see it i hurt?

i dont know what to do.

...i have never felt more alone...

our love was comfortable and so broken in
i use to be perfect
so flawless
or so they say

i think you can't see the smile i am faking
and my poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you when you loved me..
in my grey sweatpants
no makeup
so perfect?

our love was comfortable and so broken in
i use to be perfect
so flawless
I'm still not impressed
I want ( Read more... )

not ment that way at all.
it was amazing. it really was to me.
nothing means nothing.

memories. memories are everything now.

no need to be mean.
because im not being mean.
it is ok.

trust me.
having you as a part in my life in the smallest way is better then shut out.

i only did what i thought you wanted.
i gave you everything.
you took it.
and gave me nothing back.

the end.

I'm a dancer,
and I move to the rhythm of the music
Oh it carries me away.
Yes, I'm a dancer
I was born to live this life
I did not choose it
And when the song begins to play
Oh please, please will you dance with me?

Oh I'm a dreamer,
well my head is in the clouds i keep believin'
they really do come true,
rainbow chaser
and at the end I know that all the ( Read more... )

do you hear me when i tell you? can you understand where i am coming from. i feel like we finally get to talk about it, and its perfect for the next 12 hours... then where does it go? do you forget? did i change? or is it too hard?

im not trying to be cruel. i really just want to understand, because i dont right now

wrong,

things could be wrong in so many ways.. but if its not what i think is the problem, what if is something i have no control over. what if it eats me up every night until finally i am no longer, until the unthinkable. i thought i was over this, i cant control it anymore.