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i went for another swim today
Well training for triathlons are rough, you have to swim 40 minutes a day, run 3 miles, and bike 3 miles. but its safe to say that im doing pretty good so far! Although today after i finished swimming i just sat my head under water for a while holding my breath as long as i could. it was relaxing and peaceful. i could hear nothing, see nothing and ( Read more... ) -
well looky here
Here i am wishing she were awake and didnt say goodnight.. im a ball of emotions right now. why though?! I just want to have a different life than i do now. not that my life is bad, i just know that if i could change it then i would but ill just keep sailing and trucking along
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i just dont understand
i dont understand why i hide who i am. i should just tell her but WHY. its not like i can change the present. Who's to say im good enough? I mean am i good for anyone at all? im not rich and that what girls NEED is someone with money. they may not WANT it but they NEED it. theres no shame in that its just a hard fact. i can just give affection and ( Read more... ) -
well!
Today went good. i worked today and it feels like my job NEEDS me sometimes!! Now im eating noodles and i run that 5K on saturday and then i turn 22 on sunday. that means i have a year left!!! :-P i find myself often thinking WAY TOO MUCH about things i shouldnt think of. but im a rebel and i do what i want :-P hmmm if i think of more then i shall ( Read more... ) -
Feeling nothing is GREAT!
Who ever sad that id rather feel pain than nothing at all is a complete idiot!!! Why would someone put their self through pain? im to the point (have been for nearly a year now) where i dont really feel anything. time kinda just goes on. i take life as it is and continue the promise i made myself a really long time ago....23 are you ready for me ( Read more... ) -
ive been thinking about my life 2 years ago today
I wonder if things went the way they were suppposed to... i mean what if i didnt give up on a certain situation? What would i be today? WHERE would i be? Would i be happier? For instance, I was still kinda with Racheal.. i mean we were broken up but we were constantly off an on. Then someone told her AND me a lie in which we both decided to believe ( Read more... ) -
Blah...
I had another one of those dreams last night that pretty much ruin me for about a week. Why do i rely so much on my dreams? It don't have to be sleeping dream either. It could be dreams as in goals. My dreams seem to fuel me to the max and break me in half at the same time. I can't just go into something less than 100% for some reason. For instance ( Read more... ) -
Writing Songs
I've been writing a lot lately, and most of it has been pretty diverse. It's not like they're all depressing or sad songs either. Some are actually cheery songs about being in love. It's really weird because I've been writing love songs without being inspired by anyone. That usually doesn't happen with me. I most of the time need someone to inspire ( Read more... ) -
If i could be anyone
I want to be someone with no feelings what so ever! I'd like to be one of those guys without a worry in the world, like i used to. I hate how my entire life evolves around the pain that someone has caused me. I'm tired of being so bitter. Starting now im going to focus and pursue my goals. I'll try not to take life so seriously and worry less ( Read more... )