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Heart Fail Me Not
Lately my depression has been pretty mild. I could tell I've been manic because I just want to spend, spend, spend when I know I should be saving my money. I'm doing my best to keep it under control but I keep finding ways to justify my purchases even though they are not necessities (unless you consider jewlery, tiaras, action figures, and makeup ( Read more... ) -
Finals Week
Oy vey! Here come finals right around the corner. I have the rest of this week and then next week is finals! I can't believe how fast this semester has gone by. I am a bit worried about grades but I always am. My biggest concern right now is that I have a five page paper due tomorrow and I only have three pages written which means that sometime ( Read more... ) -
This was never supposed to happen
I can't believe this is actually happening. My life has completely turned upside down and nothing makes sense anymore. We think my dad is having an affair. My dad. The man who raised me to believe that affairs were sins and you would burn in Hell for them. The man who taught me that when you married someone that you held true to your vows and you ( Read more... ) -
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Tonight has been horrible! I don't know why but I am just all teary and anxious and strung up. I can't seem to sleep but I don't want to be awake. it is so frustrating. And it doesn't help not knowing what is making me so upset. Today was great. I shouldn't feel so depressed but I do. Right now I feel like I need to get away of do something drastic ( Read more... ) -
Long Time No Post
It has been a long time since I have posted anything mostly because I had no drive too or was far too busy. I went through a really long period of deep depression because my insurance company dropped me without any warning. Well I filled out all the paper work and turned it in. Four months later no word and no insurance, and more importantly no ( Read more... ) -
Unwelcome in my own home
So I haven't posted in a while because everything was going great. I was feeling happy and content I was getting things done etc. Well when it came to the end of the semester at college I had to make a bit of a difficult decision of whether or not I was going to be returning for the second semester. It came down to I just couldn't because I didn't ( Read more... ) -
Guys
God I've been longing for a relationship lately again. I just want someone. I'm twenty years old and I haven't had a serious relationship once! I feel like something is wrong with me. What is it that turns guys off to me? I'm nice, I'm pretty smart, I'm not gorgeous but you'd think there would be someone out there who could love me.And it's not ( Read more... ) -
Joys of Suprising Someone
Though my life has been a bit stressful lately (i.e. I'm supposed to be working on a six page paper that is due tomorrow right now. Although I'm only taking a little break and I do have four pages already anyway) I've seemed to run into a bout of happiness that I hope keeps coming my way. I pre-bought two tickets for Twilight because my little ( Read more... ) -
Happy Thoughts
So I went to bed around ten thirty last night because I was just beat but around three a.m. I woke up. I couldn't fall back asleep no matter how hard I tried. As I was laying there I just started to think about everything I had in life. A home, food, clothing, wonderful friends, and a loving family and I realized that I had so much to be grateful ( Read more... )