I don't know what to say or how to say it, so I'll write it ( Read more... )

That is all.

Still can't stand them.

In the past week I have seriously thought about making the last 4 or 5 entries (covering about 8 months) public and letting Ashley and my family stumble into reading them ( Read more... )

I give up. What can I do to change parents mind and make them think I am their daughter again? That's absolutely not my job. They have not done their job as parents (for me) in over a year. Sure my mom will listen to me vent...but I can feel her getting annoyed as the conversation goes on past 5 minutes ( Read more... )

I have decided to push my parents farther away.  They don't seem to notice or care anyway.  While it breaks my heart, there is nothing I can do to change their mind about me ( Read more... )

CHUCK'S NEW CD CAME OUT TODAY!!!  I have to go get is as soon as I get out of work!  I'm so stoked beyond belief ( Read more... )

A quote from my mom on her coming over for the first time since November '08:

"We're only doing this because I don't want to have to go all the way home and drive back out to Berkley."

Glad coming to my house is torturiffic for you mom.  You know I'm not real fond of you either.  You should probably not bother in the future.

I want to vomit because I want to hate her.  But I can't, because I don't hate her.  It's displaced anger.  Anger that should be directed towards my parents.  My oh so fucking wonderful parents that forgot about their biological daughter.  They forgot to tell her they love her...her entire life but can leisurely spew love for someone they met two ( Read more... )

I hate her so much I want to scream sometimes.

Passive aggressive whore.

Bug off.

You screwed with my family.

Tonight we say goodbye to 2008, and it could not have come fast enough.

Boo hiss to you, 2008.

2009, please be kind.   We are all fragile.