so here I sit..alone..on such a magical holiday...im so alone. I had a party to go to but for -some reason- I couldn't make myself get out of bed...to go.So I sit here alone but whatever at least I can be my fucking sad self here then pretend im ok at some party.. when really..I feel emotionally drained and dead...I never thought he'd kill me like ( Read more... )

well there you go...me and rolby...no more...well it's the way it goes.

mhm...party today...dunno if im gunna go..im so lazy to get dressed...

Make's me so mad how I will stay home for you because we got into a fight and id rather stay home and think about it and try to make us better and you say you dont want to go out when I ask you...then suddenly...you want to...and its too FUCKING late...I hate you for leaving me here tonight....was this you're plan all along?FUCK YOU..thats how I ( Read more... )

Show last night..John picked me and Barbs up ( Read more... )

fun night,alot i wont write...john is awesome..as is brittany *love you* and sean/mikey/model. w.e lol fun night..show today - -*it is 12.00* so yeah show today- im tired and have a soccer game tomorrow....

Me in school...I wrote alittle today,w.e ( Read more... )

Words now heard but not able to decode,face white with anticipation of another blow,but these impulses are from below,how do you wish for me to hide anymore what were both thinking-feeling-and our pain is how we love,please dont dennie a dying girl's last request=you ( Read more... )

Wow I just lost everything I wrote but w.e cause im in that great of a mood...Elan/Barb's I had the effin best day a chick could have on the phone w/ two soul's!You guy's made me laugh so much...god me and Elan* have a band...it's so amazing...emo star SNORT emo star..wow me and barb's are going to have to live at you're house for effin WINTER ( Read more... )

So this is what I do when im bored...update-ha ha- really dont bother reading this cause im just trying to blow off time ( Read more... )

I love you Rolby,it just hurt me..im really insecure,so when you said something as simple as nice my heart split open and all my insecurity's spilled out onto the floor. -it hurt-still does-