You listened to this music because it was cool. You liked it because everyone else in the scene did. But now your scene is dead and you've all moved on. And I'm still listening, I'm still feeling every chord move every cell in my soul, I'm still being moved by every lyric. This is my music, this is what I live for. This music personifies the living ( Read more... )

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I just saw my new years post from january. I have achieved nothing on there. Nothing.

Just kill me now. Please. I'll supply the gun, you do the rest.

yesterday selena said, "you should carry a gun with you". My unspoken reply was, "if I carried a gun I'd have blown my brains out years ago". The shortcut out of hell is through the barrel of a gun

What new level is there to sink to? What new bottom can be reached? Let's face it, it's not the drugs anymore. It's me. It's my character, my personality, everything about me. My laziness, my ineptitude, my dishonesty, my inability to succeed. It's crushing. I just feel like dying. Without the drugs, without anything to take this frustration and ( Read more... )

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when will i finally get the means and the will to do it.

fuck you, you fucking old man. go fuck yourself.

i hate everybody and everything. EVERYBODY. especially you, you fucking piece of shit. fuck you.

i'd give anything for the willpower to be able to finallly fucking end all this pain.

I want to believe in something, but nothing is worth anything anymore. Fuck it all, fuck everything. Fuck you and fuck your God.

There's nothing for me out here. I hate everything, and everyone. The only thing that makes life worth a damn is when I have some opiates.

I don't like life very much anymore. Not that I ever did. But this is especially shitty. Fuck everything and everyone. Kill yourselves.

I have everything and everyone. not playing.