Comments | daughterseyes: feelings now

daughterseyes

feelings now

Sep 25, 2008 14:43

Confused, nervous, scared, apprehensive, quizoxic, anxious, wanna throw up, and scream all at once. Want scott to realize we can fix this, things aren't as horrible as he thinks. Want him to not go back to her. Annoyed that I can't get through to him. Just plain twisted up in my stomach!wishing I could change the past, and control one's free will. ( Read more... )

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curiusekat September 25 2008, 19:14:19 UTC

Read my blog to you sweety

curiusekat September 25 2008, 19:41:25 UTC

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0hvOdYVTG0

Just thought it fit

curiusekat September 25 2008, 20:03:11 UTC

This song talks of young love and holding on because when you grow up - it'll be incredable. You grew up. You went through some shit...dont beat yourself up over it. Just try to recover what you can girl and let the rest happen - whatever that may be. I know you are doing this and I KNOW its hard when you still love someone......I SOOOO KNOW but would you rather not have him at all? My answer was no. You will be just fine! In the end - whats ment to be will always find a way no matter how you fight it or do wrong by it.....if God wants it - it will be.

daughterseyes October 4 2008, 16:31:59 UTC

i know... you're right. this past week between us has been incredible and HORRIBLE all at the same time. i guess life/age and experience really does change people. he and i are in a good place, but i also REFUSE to hold my breath. it can crap out as fast as it went well. he's been texting constantly... calling too. i hope it doesn't end. i hope she stays out of the picture. he's done WAY more than i ever thought he would, yet i still see where he has leaps and bounds to go as far as doing what "needs to be done" to defeat her and protect his baby. idk what'll happen after addison's born... i hope we can overcome our issues. i know i am willing to. i just hope he is too, sometimes tho honestly, i don't know if he's willing. and if his house doesn't sell... well hopefully the plan will stay the same. i cant count on anything except that i know his feelings will keep going back and forth. and as hard as that is for me to deal with i have to trust his words. like he said the other night, he does love me, just isnt ready to ( ... )