When does it all stop? The categorizing, placement, testing, modifacation, repair, change, complacency ( Read more... )

have you ever hated and loved everything about yourself all at once? Have you been ever so thankful for everything you have and worked for, everything thats been given to you, but yet somehow you still feel like you've been cheated when you lie in bed before you fall asleep? Have you ever wanted to just quit working torwards a better future so you ( Read more... )

well here i am at the abington library waiting to go to work. I really need to find a hobby so i can have somehting to do instead i dicking around on myspace and livejournal. any way not much new with me. i think iam going to deliver for dominoes soon. i have been doing a couple of runs for them and last nite i made like 20buck in an hour on tips. ( Read more... )

So here i am to post my less confusing journal entry. I guess life has been good for the past couple days. All of my college stuff is done until i go to school. My grandfather said he's going to buy me a laptop so i should have that by the weekend. And my next paycheck should give me enough money to get my awesome new guitar off lawaway at galucci' ( Read more... )

Y'all don't know my struggle ( Read more... )

So today is Tuesday. My dad and his fiance finally got married after 16 years of ingagement on Saturday. I thought it was a load of crap but after seeing my dad smile alot it was refreshing. Then on Sunday he and his wife came over too my grandparents, where i am staying while they go on their honeymoon, and we had a champaine toast to them. The ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning on my own today at 7-05 am and i thought about how my paretns turned everyone against me accept my sister and Jennifer. Then i talked to becky and she is in love with Jeremy, a guy she met though church. But she is so happy. She has been given the strength to plan for her future and shoot for her goals that she has always ( Read more... )

Well today i am feeling a little better. I talked to Jennifer on the phone last night and she isnt mad at me and wants to keep in touch but other than that everything else still sucks. But now i have to seriously start making plans for the next couple months. I am not sure if i want to go to college yet because i am thinking a bout moving, whether ( Read more... )

Never before have i felt so much pain and confusion and misdirection until now. Everything in my life is falling apart. My father is finally being the dick head i knew he was. He wants me to pay for my own tuxedo in his wedding to the woman who essentially destroyed my and my brothers and sister lives. The tux is $120! And he expects me to pull ( Read more... )

Well i forgot to talk about the cray-ZEE stuff i did in canada. when i got there on friday me and jenifer went out for chinese and walk around the street performance festival. I was really cool. The close the downtown streets and have them packed with amazing street performances. But then OH then we went to the bar, for one beer, and then we went ( Read more... )