Comments | davefreer: The Grey Cloud.

davefreer

The Grey Cloud.

Sep 15, 2009 17:04

I find this a difficult thing to deal with or even write about. I'm one of nature's optimists. A battler to core. Get the crap knocked out of me. Get up. Get going again. And repeat. It'll happen again. So what. I'm Bittereinde stock. Unless you are of this type -- or very very lucky -- writing for a living will destroy you. It doesn't mean the ( Read more... )

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alphastk September 16 2009, 15:54:13 UTC

I regret that there's little comfort to be offered but glad that you're off to do something positive. There's so much change facing you it's no wonder that your a bit overwhelmed. I pray that your little breather will help you come back up the way you want to.

brownkitty September 16 2009, 15:54:49 UTC

Barbs is a wise and strong woman, and she believes in you. Who are you to tell her she's wrong? ;)

Seriously, love and hope and healing to you.

The Grey Cloud texasmarc September 16 2009, 16:09:17 UTC

It's Cliche...But I'm going to say it. "nothing worthwhile is easy" Self doubt, worry about failing etc. is all a part of the deal.
Consider the worst that can happen and realize it's probably old familiar ground that you have pulled up out of before.
Sucks to have to possibly have to do it again, but you know you can do it and so does Barbs.
Fish, swim, recuperate and then go back and kick the crap out of it!

6_penny September 16 2009, 19:58:30 UTC

A move from a place where you have deep roots is a bereavement - as major in its own way as a death in the immediate family. Adding the prospect of going to another land ... it ratchets up the reaction another order of magnitude. To your hind brain it must feel like going into exile.
Been there.
It does pass. Right now honor the loss.

I told a friend about your story bowl and she has asked me to make a donation on her behalf (her version of anonimity) She volunteers at a cat shelter and has seen the jetsum produced by those who regard pets as disposable. She lauds your attitude.

qbzzt September 16 2009, 20:29:17 UTC

It looks like depression. I'm not formally qualified to diagnose it, but I know a bit from having it myself. Uncertainty is really bad for depression, and you've got that in spades right now. The bad economy, which probably makes publishers more careful about advances, isn't helping either.

You're smart to take a break. By the time you read this, I assume you're back. If you're still depressed, try Zoloft. I've been on it for years - it really does work. In your case, you'll only need it for a short time (my depression is at least partially genetic ( ... )