I'm taking Michael and going back to Italy for a while. But I'm not leaving until Billy has the twins. I just need to sort things out and get over some stuff.

Lat night I had my baby. A little boy. Michael Paul Merchand. It's so unbelievable how you can love someone so much after only a few seconds. When he first looked up at me with his big brown eyes, I felt my heart melt. Its the most amazing feeling in the world, holding your child.

Thank you Trent. So Much.

Michael won't stop kicking. I want to cry. I also met Master Cillian last night. He's very sweet and gentlemany. He helped me pick out a name just in case Michaels a girl. It's Delilah Rhiannon. I like it alot. I like him too ^^

I'm scared. I feel alone again and I hate it. Hyde and Gackt are gone, and Kiyo's no where to be found. I haven't seen billy or dainiel, or even Miyavi. But If I'm going to be alone, I might just go to Italy, where I feel safer. Away from the hunter.

The baby kicked last night.

It kicked Kiyo in the face

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