can't sleep. i'll try again in a bit. i'll have to make a decision soon; i can feel it coming. i need to look out for myself, because one thing is for certain- no one else will do it for me.

underneath the mess i seem to make for myself at fairly regular intervals, i am a rational, level-headed guy.

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there's a lot of shit i've written recently in private entries. i guess i do that a lot. so if something doesn't make sense; just chalk it up to a meaning i haven't written out

My dreams are drawn on not much

'Cause she's my friend
'Cause she's my friend

You give me all the reasons that make no sense
I only choose to be here

'Cause she's my friend
'Cause she's my friend

miss you too. very much every day.

this made me laugh:


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i'd guess if you asked most people if they'd give up their life to start again, a different person, no memories of mistakes they've made, they would tell you that they wouldn't do it.

they would tell you that they have no regrets.

i'm not that guy.

i've been reading over the entries i've made this year, both public and private. don't know how to feel about it, not that i ever do ( Read more... )

something has got to change.

i mean, seriously. give a guy a break, right?

fuck.

if you've never seen the movie "LIGHT SLEEPER"; see it.

i'm not joking.

see it.

this is your assignment.

seriously, at the video store, it will cost you 2.99, and on netflix, it's just another name in the queue. DO IT.

i'm not joking.

paul schrader is a genius.