I like to pride myself at the strength of my immune system to where self medication is my defense against over priced physicians just waiting and waiting in that little room with the paper sheet to hear their miraculous diagnoses. An attack on doctors so early in this writing haha. boy am I have a shitty day where everyone is a target ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I have it figured out and life opens up a road to a different direction on unfamiliar roads to where I have to keep my bright lights on everytime even if it pisses off passer bys in the opposite direction. Algorithms have become a daily mental forecast of calculative moves predicting thousands if not millions of 1,s zeroes, ( Read more... )

Sitting here ( Read more... )

The absence of substances and this new refreshed healthy journey I practice in life now has the rewards of creating a more stable, clear, and heightened awareness of myself and surroundings. Is it sobriety?? Haha I knew what I was doing ,.. I was just laughing all the way through it ,.. Maybe because I always knew it was all a big fucking joke ( Read more... )

It's gonna take sometime for me to fall back into place and in the order of things that weren"t <-- typo..where the fuck is the hyphen thing on this fucking keyboard..? ...forget about spell check ....ok having some complications here...is it this one ( Read more... )

Searching for the truth can take me down roads I could have never fathomed weeks before I find myself on the crux of an Idea. Late night searches hammering away at conspiracies taking me down rabbit holes and quantum leaps in spirituality while lieing in bed trying to validate my discomfort with the counterfeit world isn't too unusual. It's been a ( Read more... )

I can rewind the old negative film frames in the back of my mind and laugh like a fool at the shit wild times under a my once sedated frame of how ever the hell I held my composure, but Looking back now at a more responsible sensible cleared headed view, I'm actually not proud to boast anything about it. The drugs dont work anymore, the vodka ( Read more... )

so the title says enouggh,,,,,,,,,,,,,,people in el pason are cool, met a girl, jennifer was her name,....my head is boobing, i might be on a security watvch,,........................prepare fopr typos,......so ive come back into slave living,.people dont recognize it but we ar

So I'm around here and there from time to time ,....Roads were iced over this Morning, and yet people are still propelled to punch the gas and forget about the brakes and crash right into shit out here in El Paso,...whats the rush? Everyones in a rush and when they get there they dont even do a damn bit of productivity I'm just speculating here in ( Read more... )

SO I find ways to break my mind free, these Metaphoric Images appear to me in wild spurts very vividly,...At first i thought were sprinkles of Schiztophrenia , but I start to listen to new age science and its the Measurment Problem Im discovering that my mind is telling me. A rubix cube of the Holographic Immune System matrix im dismantling. What ( Read more... )