maybe if i just spew endless amount of information on to this here journal ill clean my brain out enough to be able to actually focus on o chem instead of focusing on all these retarded thoughts swirling around in my brain. i doubt it but you never know ( Read more... )

again neon trees, i just love them so much!

i want to write a real journal entry but its not flowing so lets bullet point this baby!

1.things are going entirely too well in my life. this is unsettling. im in a constant state of "when is the shit going to hit the fan"?

2. im incredibly smitten with ian. saturday was amazing. i love talking to him and ( Read more... )

"I feel the chemicals kicking in and I want to run and hide, I want to run and hide. I do it every time, you're killing me now, but I won't be denied by you the animal inside of you ( Read more... )

im really tired of my mom's extremist point of view on so many things. today, one of new kittens injured itself and were not exactly sure how or when it happened or what is exactly wrong. personally i feel like his leg has a broken bone or a dislocation. my mom took the cat to a lady down the street who own lots of kittens and fosters them. clearly ( Read more... )

i know i complain about my mom a lot and any one whose known me for a long time or even a short time are very aware of the fact that we dont get along at all but its just so redonkculous and irritating and frustrating and life consuming, theres not way to ignore it or deal with it or whatever so here is another useless and therapeutic post about my ( Read more... )

after being sick for 2 days now, im really effing bored. i literally slept all day yesterday. seriously. i drug my ass to work and that was a mistake. i was foreced home by bridget and i went to urgent care, found out i had strep and so i got some meds. mind you, ive really been sick since before like finals but that may have all been stress ( Read more... )

weird dream time but i dont remeber how it runs together or all the bits pieces but heres the highlights ( Read more... )

so my lj is supposed to be fixed. this is a test. if it does work you can read my previous posts but they are kinda depressing haha

so every since i was young (i dont know how young young is but suffiecently young)i never could imagine my future. like its completly black, a void of nothingness. not that other people csn see their future, but they have an idea how its going to go and maybe could imagine the these they expect to do or see: graduate highschool or college, get ( Read more... )

having that overly bored, cant fathom the loneliness that im experiencing and good god when will this end set of feelings. its very exciting (not). so what so i do? rant on lj. about what? well lets find out shall we ( Read more... )