Ahhhhhhh yes back to the good old days of driving an ambulance with the windows rolled down as the radio blasts "Let the Bodies Hit the Floor" in the background of the sirens, and the lights blazing going onto a ER call not knowing what you get until its right there in front of you are back again ( Read more... )

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Being alone is like a knife through the heart, all it does is make you cry, and just wanting to die, when you think your friends are there its only just a lie. Reaching out to nothing, you wonder why people even say that they care, when times are rough no one is really there. When you get a glimpse of someone there, but then its taken quickly ( Read more... )

Well my two days off really haven't gotten any better, the sad thing is I'm looking forward to go back to work just to get out of my house. Its been world war... gods whatever number its up to right now. It seems like no matter what I do for my family is never enough..... or even right in their eyes. I don't know why I bother trying anymore. ( Read more... )

What can I say this morning............ I've finally realized my dreams of going back to school are crashed and burned. Lets just face it, I will never be able to afford it. Not sure what is worse..... not going to school, or being an EMT baby sitting old people who actually should be in a damned nursing home. HELLO!!!!! this is a retirment ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here at work typing on my new laptop. I finally broke down to get one because sometimes it can be so damn boring here when I have nothing to do. A few days ago I went to a poker party at one of my nurses house. It was cool and fun, I won about $15, so that's kick ass. The best part was watching my boss lose all of his money! He was ( Read more... )

wow all my rambeling lastnight I forgot to tell ya all about this kick ass party one of my nurses threw at her house. It was totally kick fucking ass, she had a trampoline in her back yard... and boy was it a trip to see all of our drunk asses up on it. Beleive me when I say I look at my co workers in a whole new light. My boss does NOT play ( Read more... )

What can I say, I'm sitting here drinking a few beers thinking on what my life use to be like. When I was full of happiness, joy, and life. Now I'm just empty, lonely, and dying. Going to work is like yeah ok I'm still somewhat alive, but am I really... seriously...... I don't even know if I am anymore, and that's what's sad. Have I ( Read more... )

I thought it would be a normal day at work....... but I was so wrong. It was soooooooo fucked up. First off my boss thought it would be funny to see how us nightshift people would react to a fire drill. Jen and I mostly work nightshift, but pick up some days for second... yeah.. it was nuts. We got to get our dinner and sit down, then BOOM, the ( Read more... )

I'm quite proud of myself tonight.  Met up with a person who I haven't seen in over a year and told her off.  Finally all my feelings and emotions are out and she now knows what I've been feeling and then some.  There was no hiding no nothing.. all face to face.  I have to admit I feel a bit better.... she's really not could tell it in her eyes.

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