I just got to my mom's house last night after a long day of shedding quite a few tears. I was thankful to not have to deal with my dad for a while. I spent all of Thursday, Friday and the weekend with him among some of his friends and girlfriend, Chrissy. We all went to the cobourg waterfront festival and there, I bought this amazing painting. I ( Read more... )

Well, it's been quite a while since i've posted and because of this i have a lot of bottled up emotion: rage, despair and, as always, doubt, worry and confussion. But these of course are complimented by moments of joy, optimism, and enjoyment of life. ok...so...i suppose it would be best to start from where i last left off. hmm...a poem perhaps?? i ( Read more... )

well...below is a poem i have been working on ever since last summer when i took one of the hardest falls of my life. don't expect it to be some great masterpiiece because it's not; i have not the talent or self knowledge to delve deeply into my mind. honestly, it was more of a emotional release/allieviation for me rather than anything to be proud ( Read more... )

well...last night i finished reading the most incredible novel ever, called Hard Love (aptly named as you shall soon see). It was an emotionally enraveled story about this straight guy who ended up falling in love with a lesbian. Both were hardened by their lives of misery and disappointment caused by love and love lost. The author (newest enductee ( Read more... )

jami's home...got here tuesday...i was happy to hear from him and i even got the chance the spend some time with him. i couldn't believe it. he even spent the night. my dad must have felt as tho he owed me ( Read more... )

i wanted you to know i love the way you laugh ( Read more... )

so much i know...and how i wish i was nieve...unaware of the way things were...they way things are even now. im just waiting to see if my worries will be real...if my dreams and hopes for the future will be crushed...i fear reality as well as the cold hard truth that will bring to me so much pain soon...all i can think of is everything that should ( Read more... )

talked to jami last night and the night fefore that...and yes...was so so happy to hear for him..to hear his voice. oh god i've missed him. -sighs- but finally he's coming home ( Read more... )

well...I've just recieved some news that jami might be coming home. I don't know what to say or feel, partially because i am unsure what he thinks of it all. I also am uncertain if he will indeed return...as i hope he will...for i know that if situations improve where he is now, he wont be coming back. I can't think about that tho....i must remain ( Read more... )

i just finished watching this movie about the Holocaust and Anne Frank. She was one of the many millions of children that died during that horrid event. I still can't believe that such a thing happened...that such pain and suffering had plauged the lives of innocent Jews. Where was god during all this...why did he let them hurt so much? They didn't ( Read more... )