i walked 50 blocks in shoes a size to small on my birthday the last real day of my childhood at 6 am drunk and sleep deprived with my best friend to see Alice.

sometimes i can't even understand my own logic.

goodbye

so my mother some how tricked me into going to purchase. "oh just sign this paper roxanne, just so i have it done". the bitch didn't tell me she was going to the post office. so yeah... i'm going to purchase to be a psych. major because i got rejected from art school ( Read more... )

i love walking home some nights through the quiet dark streets, smoking my last cigarette of the day ( Read more... )

I dial and dial the phone each time it rings i get more and more anxious. The people I need right now don't answer their phones, ignoring me. He calls me just to hear my voice but i can barley speak each time my voice cracks in an attempt to hold back tears. I'm numb. My emergency bottle of bacardi as disappeared from my room. I have no options. I' ( Read more... )

my lesson learned today:

Don't eat a mayonaise sandwhich thats been left out too long.

This lesson was brought to you buy a 12 year old gene.

i believe that is all for now.

i've grown up so much. i feel like all my dreams have been abandoned and left behind for sitting in a shitty apartment with no food chain smoking watching decent movies bitching about being unemployed and how much money i have to get drunk. not that i'm knocking this lifestyle because for a 17 year old its really not bad but to see my camera ( Read more... )

i left everything we had at the hudson river, along with the sunset we watched ( Read more... )

i must have been a murderous tyrant in my past life...

i'm adorably happy ( Read more... )

i have to go to church tomorrow. the problem with this is that everytime i go to church i either have an emotional breakdown or a panic attack, the place reminds me to much of being a child and forces me to think of bad memories. i always end up feeling lonely when i leave and walk home in tears while i chain smoke ( Read more... )