I used to have so much energy. I'm trying to find the happy medium in all this. do i have to be wretched to  be prolific? I've been in Las Vegas for nearly 2 years, but I'm moving back to NYC in May. Until a few days ago I hadn't written a word of fiction in almost a year. I've just spent an hour reading old posts and wondering who the hell I am.

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i've never been so ashamed of this country. the racism. the neglect of poor americans. the way the media has filmed this, even. the use of the word "refugee" to describe american citizens in their own city. the fact that bus service and amtrak service stopped on saturday, while the evacuation was ordered on sunday, and no options were given to ( Read more... )

i can FEEL MY OVULATION. and it feels bad.

forget "doctors without borders," we're "drinkers without goblets"

they keep fucking breaking.

there is a heatwave. my parents are in new zealand, where it is winter. my father emailed to suggest i go spend some time with my grandmother in her airconditioned apt at the retirement village (where jodie foster's mother lives, btw) if for no other reason than to "realize there are plenty of things worse than the heat." he also wrote that my ( Read more... )

i don't even know where to begin, so i won't.

on a lighter note- i won 500 bucks last night at the pala indian casino. which was awesome.

it's been 33 days and i haven't smoked once.

and i don't know why. the idea wormed its way into my head a few days ago...and it refuses to budge. plus- today i noticed there is a spray tan place one block from my house that has a "first time spray tanner" special. it's like 15 bucks. it's almost too cheap NOT to get. i'm not sure if i want a spray tan because it will be amusing or because i ( Read more... )

and not a puff.