CJ and I broke up again because he's fucking crazy.

this time we're not getting back together, and if we ever do it won't be for a long, long time.

i hate this. i'm trying to not do too many drugs, i'm sticking with weed once every couple of weeks. though...i've been wanting more drugs lately. i so fucking hate this urge.

i care about this people more than you'll ever know but i can't stand to see them put themselves in position where they'll only get hurt and fucked for life. its not in my control though, and they won't listen to reason. i can't help but focus on them. i wish for one day i could stop worrying if they are in fact okay.

I'm getting married on July 1st of this year.

i'm trying to find a new job. i'm not going to quite this disgusting job til i know i have another. though, when i get my pay check i'm going to buy some expansion packs for The Sims 2, a pink Nintendo DS, and the new Pokemon game, Pokemon Rancher. well, we'll see if i buys all of those, The What? Shoppe got in new petty coats and i can't help ( Read more... )

I'm 18 and I can say goodbye to my mother forever! The more I'm around her I hate her. (Sorry, this going to be a rant ( Read more... )

i saw Twiztid last night! best fucking show ever, i tried ever so hard to just touch their hands. CJ and I could have went over to see them when they were leaving in this shitty ass car but, we were covered in sweat and very tired. also, i didn't really want to bother them after taking tons of crappy pictures of them on stage.

CJ is leaving in 10 days for two years at the least.

Yesterday was CJ and I's 8th month anniversary. We didn't even realize it until I had to write myself a note for not going to school. We didn't do anything special. He left me notes all over the house, that was pretty cute. CJ bought me nag champa cones, bubble tea, and a coconut ( Read more... )

where do i start ( Read more... )