Man i really fucked up. its like everything i did over the past 3 years, all the treatment and all the therapy, just flew out the window. i dont know if anyone who reads this remembers what i was like 3 years ago, but here i am. back a square fucking one.

looks like i have a lot of work infront of me.

Why do i always get hung up on the littlest shit? And why are all of my posts so fucking emo ( Read more... )

So I find it interesting how just a few small things that people say in passing, and even jokingly, can get stuck in my brain. Those words just stay there and I start to ponder on what they mean. It's nothing bad this time. Thank god. But its all this future tripping. For example, in 3 months, i am going to be 20 and I dont even have the slightest ( Read more... )

Jesus. i was looking over old entries on the other lj i used for a few months, and i came to the conclusion that i was fucking crazy. like i really wished someone would have hit me in the face and told me to stop fucking complaining.

So yeah, i just bought season one of the most brutal show ever. just got done watching it. i even said i was sick so i could get off work early.

that was so worth it.

btw in one of the episodes, Nathan Explosion is working for a fast food chain called...

Dimmu Burger

how fucking awsome is that?

yeah so i just downloaded the Dethklok album...

\m/

i wish i could show just how enthused i really am!

wow. it seems to be amazing how much i over-react to every single little thing. i was trying to go to sleep and all i could see was me over reacting to the most useless and tiny things. i dont know when it changed, but like i was so happy jsut to be back. and now it just seems to be like i am focusing on everything that is wrong. that used to be my ( Read more... )

I should really get rid of this thing.

LJ is dead...

And there are too many embaressing things on here.

So I reallydont use this anymoer, but i got bored.

i smoked my last cigarette... yay...

I think i am going to marry that girl. Now if i could just get back to Virginia.