i realize now, how dark my house is since my grandfather passed away. dark and quiet. funny, my grandmother held together the extended family, and my grandfather has held together the imediate family. i wonder what will happen now...

I close my eyes, and take a trip, through trees, over lakes and into the sky. And we collide, spinning above the clouds so fast that who I am and who you are become one. And we dive down into the California ocean followed by a long tail of bubbles that float back to the surface to break and burst forth with air changed by our love. And we swim so ( Read more... )

Mike is writing a paper, and desperately needs help. So far, I want my thesis to look like this: Seeking solace within will yield fruit unattainable outside of one's self. I'd like any kind of feedback, advice, whatever you can give me. I've never written a paper before in my life, so all is welcome.

What is the importance of writing these thoughts down? I can't even say that they are mine. I mean, i don't even know what is going on in there. What I read, a small quote from the Brothers Karamazov, made me think about this. When a man lies to other men too often, he almost conditions himself to believe the lies over the reality. In my case, I ( Read more... )

i am what you make me.

what do i do?

religion is like a fish eye lens. the big important pieces are obvious, and clear. but it is the little things on the fringes that are so hard to make out and understand.

I have a strange feeling that by tonight i may want to die. i think the ideas that crystal isn't going to be my friend, and that my grandfather is going to pass away soon have effected me a lot lately. turns out my grandfather can't have the surgery he needs. right now i feel like crying. i feel shame, and guilt. because i know that if i weren't so ( Read more... )

I see a person ( Read more... )

I didn't write last night because I was really tired. So I am writing today while in detention. I was thinking about my motives, and receding from the friends i have made would be foolish. What I receive from them is not worldly. I should, instead, seek the God that is in each of them. What I should not do, is try to meet new people. I should stick ( Read more... )