it's weird remembering how in love with someone you were...so long ago. I never think about it anymore i never really care anymore. I don't really know anymore. I guess when you leave people there is always a piece of them with you and a piece of you with them. The differences the likenesses. Oh Kelly...what did you do to your self. Your finally ( Read more... )

I wish I had all the answer. Swimming in a pool of bullshit...Lying about everything or at lest that is how it feels. Work is still yet growing on me but I wish for a moment of unadulterated peace a moment to call a moment to think. I haven't written in years I love to write...

Eerything is slow getting better. The job I AM CURRENTLY AT IS WONDERFUL. I've been waiting for something like that for a long time. I recieve respect from everyone, make good money and the free coffee ( Read more... )

THe good that has come from this thing is that I feel like I have my own space. I never feel like I have my own space.

The voices in my head are screaming at me to stop this. The beat of my heart is crying out to run but my soul is sitting where it needs to be. I watch the world move around me yet I take in none of it. I watch the laughter, the drinking, the sex and take part in none of it ( Read more... )

What to think what to do. The weight on my chest is so heavy that I can barely breath.
When the world comes crashing down who will be there...NOT THE PEOPLE I THOUGHT!!
everything is different everything is crazy I am alone and that is that.