This seems the only place i can go, where no one will find me, or my words. i feel like im drowning sometimes, and i know thats my fault. i know its because i cant get close to anyone becaues im constantly going, leaving, moving. eric is the only consistancy ive had in the last five years... why do you think i keep going back ( Read more... )

I keep my enemy's close, because I am slowly plotting my revenge. mwhah.

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championless

I need some understanding. Sometimes life makes me so dizzy. Like the world is spinning at a much faster pace. Like gravity is losing it's touch. Like time is flying just way too fast ( Read more... )

It's comforting to know i can write in here, and no one really will ever read it. My other diary has become a collection of poetry, which i fear makes my real words seem more like art, than feelings, and sometimes i like that, but today i have no poetry ( Read more... )

Sadness is my likeliness ( Read more... )

"Let me go. She said let me go ( Read more... )

i fuckedu p tonight. i couldnt handle this anymroe. istlil cant. i took pills. i popped at least 20. it felt s o good, and it even made me throw up. i feel so much lighter now. my body feels empty except for the pills. i fuckedu p. icried. i told him i fucked up and i let him hear me c ry ( Read more... )