Honestly, I've been really depressed since yesterday, and there is no real reason, which is kind of enough to piss me off. I feel like I should have more control over myself and my emotions than this, but point blank, I don't ( Read more... )

"Whenever you look at me I wish I was her. Time and time again I play the role of fool, (just for you) even in the daylight when you're near me (I don't see you) try to look for things our eyes never find." - how i feel ( Read more... )

My relationship is sinking. I'm not as happy as I look. I've cried for the past 4 hours. I'm pretty sure it's my fault. All of it. The crashing relationship. The tears that lead to panic. The racing thoughts. The fact that I'm not sleeping at all tonight because my daughter will be awake in 1 hour. The fact that I'm completely unstable and utterly ( Read more... )

I've lost 11 lbs. That makes me really happy. I feel exhausted, but I'm sure that's just because of how busy I've kept myself the past 3 days ( Read more... )

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So I guess I'm writing a lot. Hopefully not too much, but I guess I have a lot to say... it just usually doesn't come out that way. I guess I try to avoid the point with other meaningless words until the point doesn't bother me anymore ( Read more... )

I broke my tooth when I had a seizure in May, and I went to the dentist but they said they had to refer me to an oral surgeon. They said it would take 4-6 weeks to get the appointment, and I still haven't received a call. I called them this morning, but they weren't any help. It didn't bother me at first because my tooth wasn't hurting me, but it's ( Read more... )

I've now got the new LiveJournal Messenger. My Windows Live ID is deadendwalls@livejournal.com. Sign up now and we can chat!

I haven't written in here in what, 3 years? Time really flies, and most of the time that's terrifying. I don't have a lot of time to write at the moment, but I am going to start writing in here. I need the release. I need a place to turn to again, like I used to have ( Read more... )

I keep thinking, that all I ever do is wish. I'm never taking action, only moving back to what I always do. Seeking change and never changing ( Read more... )