I got jealous. I shouldn't, but I did. I don't want to be jealous.

I've changed. I'm different. And I don't know why. I've been acting different lately and I don't know why because I don't know who I fucking am. I really need some one to help me.........find out what's inside of me. I thought about asking Chris, but he might make it worse. I don't want to be like this. I feel like I'm growing distant from everyone ( Read more... )

Wow. What can I say? You're different than I thought you were. It's so weird. I like the sound of the new you. Well, the old you I've never seen before. My whole perspective of you has changed. But something is wrong. I always felt like I knew you. Now, I'm lost. I know nothing about you, like I don't even know who you are. I don't want to feel ( Read more... )

It's really weird. I feel like I don't know who I am. Like I'm just an aquaintance to myself. I don't know anything about me except for the main things, like what I look like, my name, and about my past. I don't what I like or why I am the way I am or, just who me is. Maybe that's why I have relationship problems, problems with myself, and why I ( Read more... )

Well, I had a VERY good Friday. I got my paycheck which was $253.84! I got to keep $170. YEAH! Then I went to the office. That was ok I guess. Then Melissa and I went to the movies and saw The Interpreter. It was so good. I was very inpressed with it and how much it grabbed your attention. Then we walked around for some time. I saw Tim and talked ( Read more... )

I've been told that I really don't care about you. Well, if I don't, then why can't I stop thinking about you? Why do you haunt my mind if you are nothing to me? Why am I happy when I see you if this is just an infatuation? Why am I so alone without you if these feelings are just pretend? How can I love just another face in the crowd?

It's not supposed to be like this. Everything is supposed to be right. Just like in a fairy tale. I'm supposed to be with you. I want you. I need you. You're the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning, to look at myself in the mirror and see not what I was, but what I should be. You're the only one who makes me think, who let's me ( Read more... )

I got a card today ( Read more... )

Man, today was really sucky. I woke up at like 4:50 and I started crying for no reason at all. My throat was hurting me so bad, it was all clogged up, and I was crying. I had trouble breathing. So after I calmed down, I went downstairs to find dad in the den, and he was a total dipshit to me. I was crying and he wasn't even being at all comforting ( Read more... )

My throat really hurts. I don't know what's wrong with it. I just want to rip my tonsols out ( Read more... )