what a crazy summer ( Read more... )

i find it kinda funny
i find it kinda sad
the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had.

i would trade everything i have for a more comforting emptiness. i wander the streets like i'm lost in my own play. standing around in other people's lives, acting out every scene.. until the audience leaves and there's nothing left to say. all i know is my own indifference. i'll still hold your hand, but i won't feel a thing. but i wish i could ( Read more... )

so hold yourself together
ive been good but youve been better
now that all our misdirection is left right on me
on the car ride home you tell me
i was lost could you please tell me
broken down and broken off from you inside

if you hold yourself together
ive been writing you this letter
stating all the things you needed me to say
and so ain't it ( Read more... )

wow, i am so hyper right now. its only 9:20 and i've already had like 3 cups of coffee. i went to sleep at like 1 this morning too. manion came over and stayed until 10. and we just sorta hung out in my room and we tried to watch lord of the rings but we couldnt find the chord for the audio/visual for my xbox..i dont have a regular dvd player. ( Read more... )

i havent updated in a long ass time because i have been so busy lately with exams and schedules for next year and shit so its like 7:45 am. and i am awake because i am a fucking insomniac and can never sleep. i really need some sedatives or something because i cannot fucking sleep in when i need to (or sleep at all for that matter) and well, summer ( Read more... )

a sense of happiness hangs over your head. it is infectious. and i stare at the sun to try to simulate the effect but i was wrong to ever think that anything could compare ( Read more... )

friday- manion came over for awhile and we just hung out and talked and watched cartoons and stuff. when he got home, he called me to tell me he had left his wallet over at my house and asked me if i could bring it to him the next day because they were going to be over at st. john's for awhile and he couldn't come get it because he had to meet his ( Read more... )

im still standing here ( Read more... )

so lately, i have been really cold and confused. i have been really annoyed by the way my life is a repeating cycle of variables and none of it makes any sense. i started getting mad at the way mushroom never calls me anymore and the way that i feel late at night when my eyes are burning and i can't sleep unless i listen to paper trails won't ( Read more... )