She looked down grinning at the pools of blood.  He laid there gasping his final breaths before her.  A demon peered from behind her cloak looking at the grotesque art work she had just finished.  An arm laid on the bed and foot near the door.   Bits and pieces of flesh and bone were scattered throughout the room.  Her eyes were a glow with power ( Read more... )

One piece is missing keeping me from being whole.  Hollowed out and gutted wondering when I can find the love I'm seeking ( Read more... )

Was up vomiting last night. Josh asked me if I was pregnant and I got a little worried.  Bought a pregnancy test luckily it came out negative.  Though I apparently had Josh freaked out that I might be pregnant because I didn't tell him the results.  He was relieved I wasn't and told me he would take responsibility if I was.  I'm not sure how to ( Read more... )

• My roommate and all his crappy ways of trying to be an ass hole to me.  
•  Everytime I come home I ask him how he's doing and how his day was, he always tells me how terrible it was and never asks anything of me or my day
• Today he came home and I asked what he did.  He tells me that he can't tell me because I tell ALL of my friends and he doesn't like ( Read more... )

One good thing leads to one bad thing.  Off today, a Saturday....you know how hard that is to pull off at my work? I had plans and I got forgotten....again ( Read more... )

Last couple of days were nice.  Had Thanksgiving with Josh and his family.  I actually had a good time, almost felt like I was apart of the family as crazy as that sounds.  I miss my family a lot.  Holidays always seem to make it harder to be alone ( Read more... )

I am so alone ( Read more... )

My heart is not listening to my brain. I've cried so much since last night I don't think my eyes can make any more tears. I really just want to stop thinking about him. I knew he would never have feelings for me. My heart is still whispering his name. Yet my brain is yelling at my heart. Hey stupid, he does not love you. So stop it already! I ( Read more... )

I feel stupid. Why would I think anyone would ever love me. I'm pretty sure I screwed up my friendship last night. All because I had to speak what was on my mind and how I was feeling. Of course he doesn't feel that way about me. He had already told me that. I'm such an idiot. What the hell do I do now?

Don't be fooled by the little things in life.  Keep ahead of the game.  Life brings its own torments but it's easier to keep going and never look back.  We hope things will eventually work themselves out and if we keep ignoring the obvious we will overcome.  I can't ignore the facts forever, they are there as plain as day.  How do I stop?  It just ( Read more... )