March 16

Dear You,

Dear you,
I don't understand why
You're the way you are.
First I thought you changed
But then you proved me wrong.
I never want to be you
Hurting people is not what I do.
Feelings are just nothing to you
You even made mum cry.
I hope i'll never be compared to you
Coz that'll make me feel REAL low.
You're everything I NEVER EVER ( Read more... )

so this is it. here it is again..
i cant make up my fucking mind.
situation change from one to another, not slowly but drasticly..
god,what a month! what a freaking lousy month! s0metimes its good sometimes its jus oh so fucked up! im so freaking bored! i wanna jump off a building! im so annoyed over nothing! im jus so argh@@^^#^&&#*(@ i wanna get

i just realised that we are not friends anymore ( Read more... )

Now there's 2 things i can do :

1) feel sorry for my self

or

2) Get back up on my feet and take control of my life.

CONTROL .. no matter what, in whatever situation.. i have learnt to always have control ( Read more... )

this is me- what i really feel...

Sia - Breathe MeHelp, I have done it again ( Read more... )

U know what, Im sick of this. I feel like i have soo much on my shoulders and everything and coming at once. By its own each problem seems like a small issue but everything all at once bombarding me, i feel like there is no where to breathe ( Read more... )

okay so, Fart was supposed to be back today, his flight was today but he still hasnt called. He called me yesterday to confirm if i was picking him up but since i've decided on this "cold-bitch-that-plays-hard-to-get" deal, i told him i couldnt. And i ended the conversation pretty short and not quite friendly and after i hung up i felt sooo bad. ( Read more... )

Temporary Satisfaction... why do i want it so much? Why do i need at least a ciggarette to get me by for a day. Its not like it has any high effects .. but each drag, it brings a complete satisfaction for that second or two.. and when its over, it disappears. Like how your tongue aches for the taste of that nasty chemical or how you mind cant stop ( Read more... )

Been listening to Opeth's Damnation Album and i have never heard anything better. God i love this album.. no words can describe it...

In My Time of NeedI can't see the meaning of this life I'm leading ( Read more... )

He said that there is a distorted perception in my head that makes me think that he and her are against me. When he said it, it was like so clear and so true. It is true. When they try to talk to me i straight away jump to a conclusion that they are confronting and scolding me about something i have done even though i didnt do it. I overreact a lot ( Read more... )