I don't think it's even so much of a wish to die as it is a wish to not live, if that makes any sense ( Read more... )

I suppose I should have gone into school today, but... eh. Woke up, ended up back in bed because I was so cold that I was shaking too badly to walk downstairs, accidentally fell back to sleep, and when I woke up again it was exactly three minutes past the absolute latest time that I can be literally running out of the door to catch the bus. So I ( Read more... )

I miss a lot of things... people that I haven't seen in far too long... nonexistant parents with the skills to actually call themselves that... online friends who have vanished... 'friends' who no longer seem to care... things I used to enjoy that I can't seem to even make myself do any more ( Read more... )

So. Yeah. Is this rock bottom that I've just run into face first....? I don't think so. The day I ended up in Rockford inpatient was rock bottom. But I do believe that this is damn near close... I'm not allowed back into my school again until a psychiatrist says I'm "safe" which might take a long fucking time, and I may be shipped off to ( Read more... )

Everything's just falling to pieces...

I have so much fucking homework tonight that it really isn't funny. --; I started writing my assignments on a piece of lined, college ruled paper, one per line. I had to go onto the back of the page. And that's only the stuff that's due tomorrow- that's not even counting all of the "long-term" stuff due later this week. My teachers seem to ( Read more... )

( Surveys ripped off of Kitia... )

I'm up way too early because I went to bed before midnight for once and just can't sleep any later ( Read more... )

New layout ( Read more... )

Mreh. No Valentine's Day stuff for me to do after all. I got rejected ( Read more... )