i had an amazing weekend.

i didn't want it to end. life is going on and i am enjoying it right where it is now. i want it to stay this way. at least for a little while.

i have had interpol and the new raveonettes on nonstop all day and am in a weird mood. it seems when everyone is tired and down i am all up and wired. and today everyone seems to be crawling up--- so i am crumbling a bit ( Read more... )

...last night i realized i was talking in my sleep... i was very angry with someone in a dream and they would not leave me alone... i was saying things like "fuck you" and "get the fuck away from me" very viciously... repeating it over and over. i woke up with my forehead pressed against the wall and my face twisted into a kind of sneering ( Read more... )

hope dangles on a string ( Read more... )

why am i being such a fat girl lately listening to dashboard confessional? ...i am lazy and will not change the cd's at work, so i have listened to them at least five or six times a day for the last two days ( Read more... )

a/c broken at work.

i am sitting here, sweating out sex and alcohol.

my boss ordered cat-tails for the store. i had to put them in these big vases. they smell like piss.

sex. alcohol. piss

...it's good...
...it's real...
...it's pretty...

life is nice when things are going right

...it's all salty, timmy...

nightmares are fun sometimes. i slept a decent amount last night for the first time in what seems like months. little scary dreams can be dozed through much easier than big scary dreams.

the heat in nyc jumped up out of nowhere and drove me insane.

sex in air-conditioning is now an addiction.

i've been listening to too much jeff buckley and it's upsetting the fuck out of me.

i'm sweating out whiskey.

what was supposed to be a nice quiet evening with a friend turned into crashing some wrap party for some television show and waking up late for my meeting.

i think i just shrugged and grunted when i was asked any questions.

slow. slow. quick quick. slow.

i have been really lucky lately. the only cons in life being my spending and over-indulgence in certain substances. which go hand in hand with a good time, so whatever.

...the internet is pissing me off.