i had bad dreams
so bad i threw my pillow away


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i have been alarmingly horrible to my body and mind. i should change and start taking care of myself.

but i am having too much fun.

fuck you, brain cells! i don't need a liver! std's? blah!

i like my new job. i will like it even more when i get my first paycheck.

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so i was roofied. again.

dont remember really anything. a friend took care of me.

apparently, i almost got us arrested by yelling racial obscenities at some cops.

work was real fun like this.

i dont think it wore off until mid afternoon... then i just felt like crap all day.

nothing seems to be part of the bigger picture.

the bigger picture seems to be whatever i want it to be on that particular day.

so therefore, i can conclude that if nothing is done, then one day, it might be something.

i am enjoying life a lot lately.

it just does not fucking end!
i came across another box belonging to me in my parent's garage.
shit dating back to like, 1985.
you know, they should have fucking kept me in therapy. i saw my reflection while i was looking at some of the stuff. haha.
anyways. i needed a break because i was starving and tired of shredding myself.

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you are an idiot.

you were angry, and thought i said i "wasn't any different from everyone else"...
...my words were i "am indifferent to everyone else"....
...if you could read and understand more than a stop sign, you would know what i meant.
thanks for leaving me alone.

my new credo on life is:
i'm hardly charmed by the world

thank you,

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