My old addictions and habits are coming back and I don't care. I'm using all the perfume he gave me so I can get it all gone, when it's gone I will be completely over him. So I taste like smoke and I smell like his perfume... Which makes me think of him, as if I don't enough already.

Congratulations Kimmie, Finally Out Of High School.

I don't make wishes at 11:11 anymore... It doesn't seem like they ever come true, so why bother. NO one knows if he is dating, or if they do they won't tell me. Fuck that. I taste like smoke and I love it, I know it's a bad habbit to fall back into, but it's better than others. I don't know why I write all this here, and at late hours none the less ( Read more... )

I think he went on a date... I want to go back to my old habbits, and now that I don't have to keep that promise it may be worse than ever.

Dying Inside

I posted something on MySpace that sounded kinda bad. But I don't care how bad it sounds. It's all about how it's read. I was talking about putting everything I've been feeling on here for the public to see. Now, I am not one of those "oh my life is so bad let me go write about it on LiveJournal and make people feel sorry for me". No, I just put it ( Read more... )

I wrote him a long message going on about how I still loved him and wanted to be with him. I am so stupid. He probably won't talk to me now, ever. Ugh, punch me in the face. Why would I do that? I signed off right after I sent it... But pulled a sneaky trick and signed onto my old SN. I wanted him to get off so I could get back on, but he didn't. ( Read more... )

I'm asleep. If you need me, work your way into my dreams. Goodnight all ( Read more... )

I had a voice message when I got off work. I prayed it was you... It wasn't.

I'm Still Not Happy

I hate myself... I want to cry all the time, I get emotional over dumb shit. All I want is my life back, but he doesn't want me back. It's killing me, inside and out. How can you love someone but not want to be with them. It doesn't make sense. I LOVE YOU!!! You love me, or so you say... We can work it out, we have before... What's different this ( Read more... )

UPDATE:

Eric and I are back together, did you ever doubt it?
I dyed my hair a dark brown... Well Vicki did. It's a little darker than I thought it would be, but that's alright.
I'm quitting my job as soon as I can because it's driving me insane. Can anyone help?

That's it... Wow I lead quite a boring life, no worries atleast I have one.

<3 Bri

...Is Think And Dream Of You.

I don't know what to do, my life has fallen apart. It's over... For real this time. How is that possible? It was going to be two years on Monday... Two Years how do you walk away from that?

My heart hurts