Vi, my grandmas long time friend and who I have considered my second grandma is no longer in remission from Ovarian cancer. It hurt me when she had to go through all this shit before... I mean they took out her entire plumbing to gut out the cancer... They pumped her full of Chemo and radiation and then sent her home to break her hip because she ( Read more... )

Its been a while since I have had the time to actually write. I have been writing for class but no chance to really stop and get on here to let whom ever cares about me know whats going on in my life ( Read more... )

So its been a while since I've written anything on this damn journal. Mainly the reason for that is because i had to reformat my computer back to the way it was when I got it out of the box so therefore I lost all of the links on my favorites list that brought me to this site amoung many many more. Well its been a month and eight days since I met ( Read more... )

I have not written in a while because life sucks... My car got trashed which you all know and someone smashed my guitar the other night as well. I feel like the sky is falling down on me and crushing my skull... I want to crawl in a hole and die but I cant I have to keep on moving and trying to do better in life... Shit sucks but oh well that is my ( Read more... )

Well i got mad when a certian person seemed to talk shit about me and I shouldnt have blown up like that but she wont ever see this because shes too busy with her life... Its fine... Im busy too just working working and having no one to spend time with this holiday besides family because even my guy has to work on holloween and devils night... Im a ( Read more... )

Everyones life appears to be shit but mine... Im broke and happy and going places and I have lots of love from lots of people... Its amazing the love you can find in the world when you let go of all those that hate you or hurt you and then spend time healing and growing up... The world is a beautiful place full of ignorant assholes and Cunts... Ahh ( Read more... )

Its been a while but I have been busy living life and have not had the chance to write as of much lately... Took dad to court NO JAIL only more community service YAY!!! I met a guy his name is Josh he says he loves me I say I love his company and his mind but I try not to fall to or tooo hard... Sprained my foot... still in pain although I have the ( Read more... )

So yeah life is life and things are going. Im working and dealing with mom and running the house and keeping the peace within it. Me and mom are running all of the finances and I have taken the responsibility to run certain boys around so that they can find a job because they have to if they think they are going to live with us in the future lol. ( Read more... )

So here I am I have not wanted to write in this thing for a lil bit because of the scrutiny I receieve for every bad day that I have written about. We all have bad days I have more good as of late then bad and I am off busy living them and well when I do have a good day like Kate said I am off living it but there are the times when I come home and ( Read more... )

Heres to nothing and no one that listens. Im realizing that I am going to be alone for a long long time. The aching hole within me will not be closed and by the time if I ever find someone again I wont know how to love them because I am learning how to close off my heart. I use to be happy, I use to have someone with me and now Im left alone. I use ( Read more... )