Crave - Part 5

[deansdarkdream]

Title: Crave - WIP - Part 5
Author: Mica Monroe & Deans Dark Dream
Pairing: Sam/Dean, Dean/Dax
Rating: NC17
Warning: hate speech, extreme violence, character death, grief, drug abuse
Disclaimer: We own nothing and intend no harm.
Summary: AU Sam filled with regret over the loss of Dean, has settled back at the ranch with his father, John. Dean has

Comments

[skorpious]

You and Mica are very brave men! I admire you for that and your talent as writers!

[deansdarkdream]

Thank you! We appreciate your continued support!

[maria9631]

YOU GUYS ARE JUST TOO FREAKING AWESOME!
THERE ARE JUST NO WORDS AT THE AMAZING TALENT YOU BOTH HAVE.
I THOUGHT I WAS READY FOR THIS, BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. SO I WILL GO GET A NEW BOX OF TISSUE AND TRY TO PREPARE MYSELF.

OR HERE MY COMMENT ON THE STORY:
I have been having trouble with LJ so tonight I read chapters3-5.
OMG!!!!!
I REALLY LOVED DEAN AND DAX.DEAN FOUND SOMEONE TO LOVE HIM, LIKE HE SHOULD BE LOVE AND IN RETURNED ACTUALLY LOVED SOMEONE ELSE. MY HEART BLEED FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO DAX WHEN HE WAS YOUNGER. AND THAT DEAN AND DAX MARRIED AND LIVED HAPPY FOR 10 TENS WOW! JUST WOW.
I'M SURE DEAN IS BLAMING HIMSELF, SINCE HE WANTED TO GO TO NEW ORLEANS. MY POOR DEAN MY HEART IS BROKEN FOR HIM AND HOW HE HAVE LET HIMSELF WASTE AWAY.

[deansdarkdream]

Thank you for your enthusiasm and your continued support of our writing project! Mica and I both appreciate it!
Dax and Dean both needed someone who would love them unconditionally and unselfishly to be happy. They were lucky enough to find that in each other! Dax had lived through terrible tragedy and abuse but retained a sweet core that Dean nurtured.
Dean is broken inside by the loss and the guilt. He can't survive without love and if Sam doesn't man up, he'll lose Dean forever.
We'll start work on the new post soon. *hugs*

[maria9631]

TO: MICA AND DARE

OMG! OMG! *TEARS*
I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE THE HURT AND PAIN AND HEARTBREAKING LOSS, YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN THROUGH. I COMMEND BOTH OF YOU ON WRITING THIS CHAPTER, IT COULD NOT HAVE BEEN EASY. I KNOW IT ISN'T MUCH BUT FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART I AM SO SORRY FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AND YOUR PARTNERS. MAY GOD ALWAYS KEEP YOU BOTH SAFE AND IM SURE ZACK AND BOBBY ARE AND WILL ALWAYS WATCH OVER YOU GUYS. BIG SQUEEZEY HUGS

GOD BLESS,SWEETIES

[deansdarkdream]

I was with my partner, Zach, for seven years. Two years ago on June 1st, Zach was beaten to death while protecting me from a group of gay bashers. He was my world. I very nearly died from my injuries, then I very nearly died from grief. This story is very real to me. The pain is still very real to me. Thank you for your kindness.
Hugs
Dare

[wildenwicked]

You guys have a lot of courage not just as survivors but as men. I don't know if I could put my pain out there like you did. I can only imagine how hard this must have been on both of you. Thank you for bringing attention to a problem that many are not aware of. You guys are awesome! *hugs*

[deansdarkdream]

Honestly, I have needed to purge that pain from my system for a long while. This was a constructive and cathartic way to do that. In the Midwest, we see this type of violence far too often. It is always good to raise awareness. Thank you for your support!

[xnitelite]

This was horrifying and heartbreaking to read. Oh Dax...

I can't begin to process all the pain, loss and grief you and Mica must have suffered. Your courage and grace in sharing this with us is most inspiring.

I just hope that Dean finds some semblance of peace and healing with Sam.

[deansdarkdream]

I think we both needed to make a statement about hate crimes because of our personal experiences. This was incredibly painful to write and relive but if we raise awareness, it's worth it.
It's time for Sam to man up and save his baby brother! We'll find out soon if he's up to the task. Thanks for your support! *hugs*