i question my regret. how much was it worth... 
truth is, compromise is different from accommodation. and there is no sense in accommodation.

as time passes i begin to dread it more and more. 
sigh. how did it become so tiring :(

Juay Wee Liang said
anyway
school has already started
agnes ong said
HAHA
Juay Wee Liang said
just so u know
hahahaha

promised myself to start this sem well but i went and ponned one whole day of class to go out. sigh, a leopard never changes its spots.

did better than i deserve for sem1 but less than what i want. does that make sense? it does right. ( Read more... )

就是因为我有努力过，
才知道其实我不想知道。

为什么我要委屈自己？

这次我真的已经看清楚了。。。
是与否
真与假
值得与不值得

或许我无辜做了傻瓜，
但。我不是笨蛋。

what am i doing?
i have no freakin clue

after putting yourself through so much shit for someone, you think they can accede to a small request. just one favour. but no, they forget at their own convenience as if you never happened. pretty fucked up stuff that is. times like this i really believe kindness is a form of weakness. people take advantage of it any chance they get. got to be ( Read more... )

thus ends my first sem.

and agnes 2.0 sucks.

i've never been so apathetic. all i wanted to do was to lie on my bed and die. dare not hope for much cause i don't think i even made one third of my classes...tutorials inclusive. and while everyone studied, i decayed. though at the key moment i did try to study as hard as i knew how, i'm doubtful it'll ( Read more... )

"so why do you keep doing these things you do?"

"because i believe one day it will pay off? though im not sure when or how...

...or even why"

"and if it doesn't?"

"then at least i cant blame anyone"

v v v v v amazed at my coursemates who can go without sleep for days (nights).

i am not strong enough unfortunately.

don't at all feel prepared but i am going to get myself some shut-eye before the paper or i will most likely die later. i think it's already v v v v v amazing that i managed to last till now, albeit with lots of rest stops in between.

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dead.

slept 10hours when i already didnt have enough time for today and tmr's papers.

i hate having sinus:(

I HATE SITTING IN THIS ROOM IN THIS FOREIGN PLACE TRYING TO STUDY!!!!!

i have not seen anybody for the entire day. it feels damn pathetic. and i've got nobody.

and im not allowed to go home.

i feel like i'm playing solitary. except i havent got a Val to talk to.

:(

AND WHY MY SURVIVOR NOT OUT YET???