Lo siento, mis amigos...

[dear_emily]

Ok, so sorry for the last few entries. Ugh...I hate the breakouts before your period and the fat that's always there. It's like before I put on make-up, I seriously feel so ugly I could kill myself. And then I put it on and make myself up, presentable at least, and I feel fine. I get to get over little things

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[lbkatgurl]

Hey, it's me again. Yeah, I'm still stalking you. Things are going good for me. I know where I'm going to go to college (University of Illinois-Urbana), and I think I'll be happy there. I have a solid group of friends...even though I'm afraid that I might be losing my best friend to her boyfriend, something that seems to happen a lot to me. I'm really looking forward to graduation, and starting a new chapter in my life. Anyway, I was reading your last couple of entries, and I was wondering if you could post a picture of yourself. I'm sure you're not as "disgusting" as you think you are. You can see a pic of me on my icon, or you can check out my yafro accout...http://lbkatgurl.yafro.com (you have to go back to December 2004 and May 2004, when I actually posted). So yeah, I guess I'll ttyl.

[dear_emily]

That's exciting that you finally know where you're going to school. It's sooo much weight off your shoulders (no pun intended...) to finally know what you're doing after high school. And I'm excited, too. I'm glad I got senioritis this year because if I'd gotten it earlier, I think I would have died because I REALLY want out! I don't think I can post a picture of myself...not like I don't know how to, but I'm so worried people I know are gonna find this journal and totally ruin my life. I can't let that happen. I'll just tell you that I'm 5'6'' ish, brown hair, blue eyes, and 160. Sorry, I mean I don't want to be rude or snobbish, I'm not trying to be at all. I just can't let people - more the ones I know - see me. But I mean, I look like an average girl I guess!

[somesayim_plump]

glad you're feeling better:)

cutting sucks. none of my friends have ever found out that i used to do it [still do occasionally] and i never want to let them find out. i just hate it whent hey say things like 'cutters are only looking for attention'. i mean, the majority of kids that cut don't WANT other peolpe to know. so the ones that wear it like a fucking badge of honor on their wrists piss me off. they make all of us look bad. :sigh:

but again, i'm glad you're feeling better. :) I only wear eye-makeup but if i'm not wearing any i feel like shit.

[dear_emily]

Thanks :)

Yeah, I don't know. I never thought I'd actually HAVE to cut to feel better. It's like, I've got this hold on me and I can't get away from it. And cutters are seriously not looking for attention - except for those ones who do it for the look. I mean, it's cool that I have my own little secret, but then I realized the other night that I don't want people to see and comment about it. It's mine. A scar is there to remind me of the pain, of my hurt and...I don't know, just to make me feel better I guess. Not for someone else.

Lol, and I know what you're talking about with the eye make-up. If I don't wear mascara then I can't find my eyes!

[nicht_allein]

hi. saw you at _thinspiration_ and i´d love to add you to my friends but i think you wouldn´t understand anything - i write in german :((

[dear_emily]

That's cool, I can still add you and someday I will learn German!