I climbed your armsthen you pulled awaya new cavity moved intomy heart todaythe more I screamthe more it seemsthat now I'm throughnow I'm throughwith the new youI drove you home thenyou moved awaynew cavity moved intomy heart todaythe more she singsthe more it seems thatnow I'm throughnow I'm throughwith the new younew you-deftones

I don't know how for such a social person I can be so unsocial or uninterested. I don't know how for such a caring person I can have such trouble with intimacy. How for such a loving person I can can hate and be so angry at the world sometimes. How I can feel so many things at the same time that all contradict each other.

I'm sick of this head cold ( Read more... )

What do I want out of life? I feel like I just have general ideas. I'm watching a show about dominatrix and submissive relationships, and they all seem so happy, like they are doing what they know they want. I don't really know what I want, or what kind of things I want right now.. Each year of our lives we become more and more dependent on ( Read more... )

I also think I'm going to chop my hair off

Sometimes I just don't like anyone or anything. Sometimes I just really fucking hate the people I meet and everything about their stupid fucking way. I know I am an angry person and in some way I don't know why, or how it happened. Sometimes I just wish I could tell the world off and forget the rest.

Sometimes I fucking hate the ground you walk on ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in Starbucks right now, the seating area is seventy five percent full. Technically we are all sitting together under one big roof in one general area, but we are all really on our own. I don't know why people come to places to be alone in a room full of people, but even I do, there is something that I like about it without knowing why. ( Read more... )

I'm being really lazy right now laying in bed when I should be getting dressed and doing my errands before another day at work. I woke up feeling crummy and like I didn't sleep at all. In wish I could stay in bed all day. In really want a pumpkin muffin from Dunkin Donuts, if there was one thing I missed more than anything on the west coast it was ( Read more... )

It's really hitting me, I can't believe I'm going to be 21 Monday. It's crazy I no longer for the rest of my life will be too young to par take in specific activities or attend certain events. It's strange to think I really am an adult, and that I'm only getting older. When you're a teen you feel like you're going to be young forever, but growing ( Read more... )

I am really stressed out as to figuring out what to wear for my license picture. It's ridiculous. My license picture from when I was 16 is horrid, I don't want to deal with that for another however many years to come.

Like I don't have bigger things on my plate.

I ate too much for dinner, my burrito was completely mediocre, I don't get my terrible luck lately with burritos. Then I ate some gelato ice cream on a stick. I have to renew my license tomorrow since it expires Monday since I'll be 21. I don't want to.

I got my health insurance applications in today so hopefully something good will come of it. I ( Read more... )