Gurr.. I'm in sucha bad fucking mood. I seriously hate days like this. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me... but oh well fuck it. I'm so fucking tired... like I only got 4 hours of sleep last night.. I am having all these really bad problems... like I've been eating and smoking a lot lately like more than usual.. and I can't ever sleep ( Read more... )

Well I'm not like Depressed or anything... I'm actually in a good mood just because of how I can talk to Matt now and stuff... but it's more along the lines of I miss him so much and I just wish he was here ... with me... and I wish I knew how he felt about me because honestly.. it hurts not knowing... I mean maybe he still likes me, maybe he doesn ( Read more... )

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Okay so yeah I finally got matt's address from his rents today.. so i'm so happy.. lol I sent him so much shit.. it'll probably take 50 stamps to send lol. but that's okay haha i'd do anything for him so yeaha... I love him! :P

"One Question ( Read more... )

Grr... It's not just my head... I love him; I seriously do. Last night I was laying in bed thinking about him, and I dunno what happened, but all of a sudden I just kinda broke down and started crying and praying and stuff.. then I went through my room in hysterics trying to find all his letters and stuff... And I never did find any of them... ( Read more... )

Okay things are ok with me and shannon i guess i kinda just was in a really bitchy mood last night which i really really was i wanted to die last night and I don't know why.. but I had this feeling that shit was going to happen with everyone which it did but it's getting a little better i guess... I miss matt so bad omg i just want to be with him ( Read more... )

Oh my freaking god I swear... Everytime something good happens in my life then something comes along to ruin it! If it's not one thing it's another! I'm getting blamed for all this shit I didn't even do, and like I swear... The whole world is turning their back against me... Shannon and everyone was like giving me an ATTITUDE on the phone today ( Read more... )

Well a couple weeks ago I had three main goals ( Read more... )

I do not want ANY comments about this-none-whatsoever.. this is an apology to certain people and I do not want anybody involved than those that are being mentioned. First of all.. to Juston.. I am sorry that I lied to you so many times... I am sorry that I confused the hell out of you-I don't know what's been up with me this past week.. I've NEVER ( Read more... )