I'M LYING TO MYSELF AGAIN
Suicidal imbecile WAY A WAY A WAY from here i'll be !! when will u come back to me? i need u now more then ever before.........

wow im so board...... lol well im geting a bass soon and its gona be black and then have a hot pink pick guard and strap.. im also plaing my summer vacation lol ( im way board) ummmm im gona go surffing , and this christmas im goin snow boarding..ok well thats all so later yo

i hate my self..im such a wrothless person. i deserve nothing. if ur my friend dont be. im sry if i every hurt u or anyone. i have been clean for over 2 months and ppl still think im on them. some times i wish i was just to relive the pain i go though. iam so much happerier with out them and why cant ppl c that. corona im sry for what ever i did . ( Read more... )

omg my lil baby is almost 5 ! ahh its not kool , he just stated school and im so sad, hes growing up to fast ! i miss him being a lil baby . i wish he still needed me and depended on me . hes so indepented its not funny. hes all grownup. i would give any thing to be there for his 5th birth day . it hurts me so much not to beable to c him every day ( Read more... )

wow saterday night rocked .. i met my bfs family and it was so much fun ! his lil bro ty is 2 and his favorite word is monkey bitch ! lol hes great ... his mom is so sweet and his lil sisters are so sweet !

im on code blue ! lol its gona be so fun !!!!!

hey hun ! i love ya to death ! lol i have so much fun with u .. i cant wait till we go out on saterday ! neways im sry for all the shit thats been happenin ! it drives me crazy ..i just want u too know i love u.. and i pissed at a lot of ppl for what there doin to us ..ppl need to leave us alone and relize were gona betogether for a while.. ur my ( Read more... )

joel is almost 15 !!! aug first !!! love u joel !

i tried to kill my pain,
but only caused more,
so much more,
all of this regret,
i lay dieing,
praying,
bleeding,
and screaming,
am i to lost to be saved,
,y god return to me,
my wounds arnt healing,
I WANT TO DIE!!
my god returne to me and save me,
my cuts cry for evidence,
my soul cries 4 deleverence,
will i be denied,
christ my king return to me

i hate wut uv become,
all the pain u cause,
i fear the fear of becoming u,
some how some day i'll make it through,
i dont think im strong enough to face the pain,
im so numb