So for the past...hour or so maybe I've been reading my past livejournal entries.  They're....interesting I suppose lol.  I don't post that often so there's a gap in between each one and a lot of information is missing.  I complain a hell of a lot about money....it's basically all I do.  And out of all the entries on this page maybe three are happy ( Read more... )

So I've come to the conclusion that my decision to not drink alcohol sort of kills my social life, flat out murders it.  It was never a big deal in high school because my friends didn't really drink either, and if they did well I was never around.  In college -_- doesn't work out so well.  Every time there is some sort of social thing going on it ( Read more... )

I don't really have that many regrets really....well....sort of I suppose.  But since coming here there has been one thing that I regret so much...I wish that I had realized earlier that music is what I wanted to go into.  Then I would have tried harder.  I was always good compared to everyone in school but if I knew that there was nothing else I  ( Read more... )

Should I feel bad that I'm happy?  My best friend is literally stuck.  Fucked.  Whichever word you choose.  They both apply.  She can't go to college because she has to take care of her younger brothers.  Her mom works and her "step dad" is in jail, or something.  They're poor.  And I'm not just talking hey we can't afford that playstation or car ( Read more... )

I think I may start typing in here more....it's sort of relaxing...and when I'm close to  having a minor nervous breakdown because of an audition I think I need to relax a bit.  I'm....sort of worried. maybe.  Maybe I'm already relaxed.  Either that or I've already gotten used to the notion that I'm not going to make it....hmm You know what....that ( Read more... )

Haven't been here forever...not like anyone reads it, it's more for myself than anything else ( Read more... )

Honestly.  My mom comes home and Nathan was supposed to pay the car insurance but slept until like 4:30 and the place closes at 5 so she starts screaming at him about it, then starts screaming at Colin cuz he never put away the dishes and I think she threw one so I came out to do some damage control then she starts screaming at me because I  ( Read more... )

I really think I do.  He should have given me that whole fucking bag of candy and it would only start to make up for this shit.  I swear to god I am so pissed.  Yeah so, I'm second chair right?  Yhasmine is first.  I was pretty fucking amazed when I got second but hey if that's how it's works then I'll go with it.  Now, for jazz band, Kou and Billy ( Read more... )

I hate it...when I suck at something I like doing.  -_ ( Read more... )

I hate my dad more and more every time I talk to him.   Seriously.  Ok, so yeah, he started paying child support again, but I bet that's only because there's a hearing at the end of the month because he hasn't been, and as soon as they say ok he's paying he doesn't have to go to jail or anything, he's going to stop paying most likely.  But one day ( Read more... )