i know i'm not supposed to be thinking about it

but a part of me is still curious.

i've been too busy to write, and that makes me sad. i used to have the time or the inspiration to sit down and have it out on my journal, but i'm just too tired. or maybe it's maturity. discussing my emotions rather than keeping them inside and then pouring them out on the internet. who knows. at any rate, i do miss writing. coffee has replaced tea ( Read more... )

i miss my san luis life ( Read more... )

i am officially 23 as of 6:16 this morning.

heYO!

i was doin' fine ( Read more... )

i realized the extent of my OCD last night when i realized i couldn't stop trying to pop the ingrown hair bumps on my leg. i watched as the tiny bump became red, engored, and a stream of white oozed with satisfaction. intensity and satisfaction. that's what i felt. i was manic with power...i knew i shouldn't. but i did anyway ( Read more... )

honesty.
always remained a priority
lest we forget our integrity
what happened
where has it all gone?

still waiting for your call.

still competely and utterly confused.

just know i'm here when you're ready.

with whatever you have to say.

.be kind to me.
.or treat me mean.
.i'll make the most of it.
.i'm an extraordinary machine.

so i'm still looking for an affordable 2bdrm place in santa monica, which is virtually impossible, but i came across one listing that sounded promising.

$1150 2 BDRM near main street, where i work. so i click the link, and this is the description.

Small 2br apt attached to main house, sep entrance, shared laundry. Street parking. Rent from kink- ( Read more... )

it felt like winter ( Read more... )