i just want to be happy again...........

im hurting deep inside and i dont know what to do why cant things be easy, please god why cant life be easy

i dont kno wat to do i loved my brother and never got a chance to tell him i just dont know.

i love you johnny and i will forever miss you

I FUCKIN HATE EVERYTHING, FUCK THE WORLD AND FUCK THE HOLIDAYS I JUST WANNA DIE.

I have returned. I feel like i've been run over by a truck. I try to hard, Today when we were doin a grocery truck i (of course) pulled to hard and put to much strain in my lower back. Let me tell you what I hurt in places i didnt kno i had. I just plain hurt. It makes me feel to damn old and i hate it. As i said before in each of my journals i ( Read more... )

I have returned. I can't stress enough the importance of alcohol. I need to get really wasted like i did when i was with buttsy. Hmmm reflecting on the old days.. I feel so old. I still think I need a very long vacation ( with maybe some company i dunno :) hey u never kno) I think i'm gonna start writing in this thing more often and with every new ( Read more... )

I am back again, i worry way to much, i really hope friday goes well. i dont kno i really need to stop stressing, i need my blood pressure pills, damn listen to me i'm a nervous wreck i need to relax, everything will go well and i just need to chill. k i'm out

For once i am happy its been a while, I hung out with chloe and i enjoyed every minute of it, she makes me feel good about myself again and when i'm around her i dont think at all about smoking. I was nervous as hell why i have no idea. I am probably gonna call her tomorro and she if she wants to do something. Shes funny and pretty and just friggin ( Read more... )

WOW its been a while. Its like an old friend hmmm. Excitin shit has happened to me lately first off I BOUGHT ALCOHOL it was great. Then me and Nick went to stetson and got a bit drunk with buttsy let me tell you wat i had a fuckin fun ass time.. Met some women and had some alcohol and it seemed like we smoked like 17 cigarretes. And then i had to ( Read more... )

i'm a little happier now i just learned i'm gettin my new DELL fuck yea. i hate this piece of shit IBM. i think i'm addicted to cigs. i need to quit but its damn hard. i dunno o well back to the boring thing i call my life.