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[decadntmelnchly]

do you ever feel like you have secrets that you will never tell anyone? today i realized that most of mine i have told. i dont know how this makes me feel. relieved? sad? angry? regretful? maybe all of them. still, there are some that embarrass me so and confuse so wholly i cant even begin to reveal them. ive tried, i am incapable of it. its not

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[cara_anima]

I know that feeling - i often panic that if my boyfriend knew even half the stuff i keep from him he would run a million miles away from my insanity! He says he wants to marry me but I dont even know if it would be fair to trap him with such a crazed bitch like me. But the control is just too alluring.

[decadntmelnchly]

it isnt fair to let them in. i know that now. i feel selfish and stupid all the time for telling people. the part that is tough is when you have to decide which you enjoy more, the control or him in your life.