When I got home from practice I stood in my room for about twenty minutes with my sweatshirt pressed up against my face. I like that smell, but it's more about the suffocation. Keeps me quiet anyways. Then I was going to go eat with my dad (papa fritz) and talk to him about basketball, but my mom invited herself along, so we just got take-out. ( Read more... )

This is random but I keep saying this over and over to myself.

He asked why I had tears in my eyes and I said, "oh nothing, just broken contacts." And he told me to wear glasses then. I just smiled and nodded. It's just broken contacts afterall, nothing more.

Last night after the game my dad made me feel really good. He was talking to my mom on the drive home about basketball and they didnt think i could hear because i had my headphones on. He said stuff about my playing and I know he meant it because it wasn't just parents complimenting you because well they're your parents. He also talked about ( Read more... )

Disregard that last post. Instead, read this and then you can decide if this is how I feel, or just something I wrote ( Read more... )

Honestly I have no idea what I'm doing and I think he knows but I won't make him care. I want to make him care, but I can't make him care. I don't even know if I really want him to care. I'm just not myself and I understand no one really gets any of this or cares to get it. But you see, this is all I have. There are no other outlets ( Read more... )

I should be doing physics right now, but I feel it's important i say this. thanks rachel for being excited about me starting tonight. no one else seemed to care. i didn't agree with coach's decision, my friends may not have either, but if they really cared about me you'd think they'd at least show a little support. that fools, is why i'm ( Read more... )

I had all this stuff planned out in my head to say, but then I talked to Victoria and now I don't need to say them to anyone else. I hope I helped you tonight by the way. It's good to finally find someone who agrees with my about marriage and the dark. Someday we'll hang out and it'll be good because I could tell you everything and never shut up ( Read more... )

I listened to the Aida soundtrack tonight and it depressed me ( Read more... )

I've found the ultimate ( Read more... )

I've ( Read more... )