I see the tip of my index finger / My mind is slowly creating a link

[dechets_totaux]

The fact that I'm constantly seeking approval from people who don't make me feel good about myself makes me feel nauseous. And, feeling like I'm spinning out of control and can't get a foothold anywhere really terrifies me. I mean, this is right now. I can't spend anymore time not knowing and avoiding assertion. In two months I have to apply to

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[i_need_you1234]

Great goal!!I dont think it's a silly aspiration.

[croak108]

Not silly, goe for it; i've been reading about gelatin in community.livejournal.com/vegetarian, tHat's whye ime here. Dooe well!

[dechets_totaux]

hahaha, thanks!

[croak108]

THee be wellkm.

[rule1122]

ahhh every time i read cryptic entries like this it makes me nervous
but i think i understand this pathetic desperation you're referring to, and it disgusts me too.

thank you for the email. i kinda realize now that i fit that description to a t.

[dechets_totaux]

ah, I'm glad you didn't think it was overbearing, I just figured that being informed might help.

ilu. let's hangout.