WHEN WILL I GET TO STOP TAKING PILLS EVERYDAY TO SUPERCEDE MY NAIGRA FALLS EYEBALLS?

"I don't want to fight
just want a piece of your life
oh, if you come out to play
I don't want you to say...anything"

"I don't understand myself or my feelings, or who I am or other people or anything at all, but I am trying to be present, at least, and feel my toes and my heartbeat, and remember that things are fluid, everything is alive." Taylor Hand, a long time ago.

Well, I guess the MOST different thing in my life now is that after 2 1/2 years, the Eva & JP ( Read more... )

okay it's not so so so so so bad. I got another car, live in my own apartment that I can decorate like a mini-Martha, and I have a pretty killer collection of shoes going on right now. Just sayin'

"okay, I'm not really sure what to say, but I am undergoing a lot of change right now, I suppose. But, first, just to get the big stuff out of the way: I have felt like complete and utter shit. Like, guilty and grossed out by myself, but also physically tired and weaker and less vivacious. Also, this has only exacerbated my food anxiety issues. I ( Read more... )

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but...oh.

This is my car, except my model is black, and has Swedish pride stickers adorning the back--but I think it's kind of lovely:

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I cut off all my hair and bought loads of sexy underwear and drove in traffic for the first time today. Big deal alright.

It's only right that you should play it the way that you feel it.

The fact that I'm constantly seeking approval from people who don't make me feel good about myself makes me feel nauseous. And, feeling like I'm spinning out of control and can't get a foothold anywhere really terrifies me. I mean, this is right now. I can't spend anymore time not knowing and avoiding assertion. In two months I have to apply to ( Read more... )

"Dear Jane Reader ( Read more... )