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a farewell to you old friend.
the world is going. things are moving. people are in motion. things are not stagnate. things are not shitty. things are good. things are real good. I don’t have everything I want. I have everything thing I need. and maybe a little bit of what I want. but the greed, the envy, the self-pity in me always wants more. more. more.more. how do you like it ( Read more... ) -
Tears and goosebumps
Today, I've seen two grown men cry. Not because they're cry-babies or weak men, but because they have feelings. They were feeling them. They were accepting them. It amazes me how, as humans, we continue to grow. That is, if we are willing to grow ( Read more... ) -
pendulum
I ride this pendulum of emotion all day. Everyday. It’s nauseating. I notice I only turn to the relief of a little lj when I’m not feeling my best. I guess, mostly, because when I’m feeling good I want to savor those moments for what they’re worth and not spend them on here. No matter how great they are.
It’s fun to listen to old songs. They ( Read more... ) -
save tonight and fight the break of dawn. come tomorrow, tomorrow I’ll be gone…
I’m just completely aggravated with everything. I find that I’m not my usual kind, loving self. I hope I’m not hurting anyone right now. If I do, I’ll be sure to right that wrong. Ugh, words that he said to me. I have to keep writing. It’s only way I’m going to be able to find some peace. Just some.
I am incredibly grateful for the return of my ( Read more... ) -
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back at it. back at what makes my fingers dance and my mind speak. back to a place where i feel like myself. sometimes, i think you're the only one who really knows me, lj. sometimes. but even when you think you truly know yourself, do you? well maybe some do, but i cannot say that i'm one of those few. i'm no where near knowing ( Read more... ) -
serenity, acceptance, courage, wisdom.
I constantly pray for these things. Thank you, Higher Power, for being in my life and taking control :)
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118/90!
my blood pressure is elevated. well my diastolic is ( Read more... ) -
better at being bad
i can't help but feel discouraged about my attempts to be a creative, acknowledged writer. it sounds like a dog-eat-dog, competitive field. well, duh, i should have known that. i mean, of course i did...
one thing i am good at: bad timingextremely horrible timing. really makes me sad. but, i digress ( Read more... ) -
my only hate spawn from my only love
there was a time in my life when i thought i hated him more than oil hates water. if only that were true. i hated what he had done to me & the way he made me feel. i never stopped to realize that he was teaching me valuable life lessons i'd carry with me forever. he also taught me to apprecite the things i used to have and what i still currently ( Read more... ) -
cracking a smile
so it is possible ( Read more... )